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a shaded lamp throwing its light on her book. He was astonished to find
how sweet a thing was poetry. By himself he could never read a line, but
as it came from her lips it seemed to charm him. It was a new pleasure,
and one which, though he had ridiculed it, he had so often coveted! And
then she told him of such wondrous thoughts, such wondrous joys in the
world which would come from thinking! He was proud, I have said, and
haughty; but he was essentially modest and humble in his self-estimation.
How divine was this creature, whose voice to him was that of a goddess!
Then he spoke out to her with a face a little turned from her. Would she
be his wife? But before she answered him, let her listen to him. They had
told him that an early death must probably be his fate. He did not himself
feel that it must be so. Sometimes he was ill, very ill; but often he was
well. If she would run the risk with him he Would endeavour to make her
such recompense as might come from his wealth. The speech he made was
somewhat long, and as he made it he hardly looked into her face.
But it was necessary to him that he should be made to know by some signal
from her how it was going with her feelings. As he spoke of his danger,
there came a gurgling little trill of wailing from her throat, a soft,
almost musical, sound of woe, which seemed to add an unaccustomed
eloquence to his words. When he spoke of his own hope the sound was
somewhat, changed, but it was still continued. When he alluded to the
disposition of his fortune, she was at his feet. "Not that," she said,
"not that!" He lifted her, and with his arm round her waist he tried to
tell her what it would be his duty to do for her. She escaped from his arm
and would not listen to him. But--but--! When he began to talk of love
again, she stood with her forehead bowed against his bosom. Of course the
engagement was then a thing accomplished.
But still the cup might slip from her lips. Her father was now dead but
ten months, and what answer could she make when the common pressing
petition for an early marriage was poured into her ear? This was in July,
and it would never do that he should be left, unmarried, to the rigour of
another winter. She looked into his face and knew that she had cause for
fear. Oh, heavens! if all these golden hopes should fall to the ground,
and she should come to be known only as the girl who had been engaged to
the late Sir Florian! But he himself pressed the marriage on the same
ground. "They tell me," he said, "that I had better get a little south by
the beginning of October. I won't go alone. You know what I mean--eh,
Lizzie?" Of course she married him in September.
They spent a honeymoon of six weeks at a place he had in Scotland, and the
first blow came upon him as they passed through London, back from
Scotland, on their way to Italy. Messrs. Harter & Benjamin sent in their
little bill, which amounted to something over £400, and other little bills
were sent in. Sir Florian was a man by whom all such bills would certainly
be paid, but by whom they would not be paid without his understanding much
and conceiving more as to their cause and nature. How much he really did
understand she was never quite aware; but she did know that he detected
her in a positive falsehood. She might certainly have managed the matter
better than she did; and had she admitted everything there might probably
have been but few words about it. She did not, however, understand the
nature of the note she had signed, and thought that simply new bills would
be presented by the jewellers to her husband. She gave a false account of
the transaction, and the lie was detected. I do not know that she cared
very much. As she was utterly devoid of true tenderness, so also was she
devoid of conscience. They went abroad, however; and by the time the
winter was half over in Naples, he knew what his wife was; and before the
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